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Emmanuel, You Have Come to Save Us

January 17, 2012 by allisonbenotafraid

I feel somewhat silly saying this, but I really can’t believe I’m here again: lying awake in bed, night after night, unable to sleep, filled with anxiety, wondering if I will get to see my sweet boy grow up or reach old age with my husband. I’m almost ashamed to admit that despite everything we went through this past year, and how fully I discovered how fragile, uncertain, and precious life is, since reaching remission on October 13th, I got […]

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Categories: Cancer, Music • Tags: Chemotherapy, Christianity, Hope

31 Days of Facing my Fears: Day 4 Facing Fears with Laughter

October 5, 2011 by allisonbenotafraid

My sweet baby boy, John Paul, laughs a lot, which means that I do too. And it’s wonderful. I’ve had a few people ask me what we do all day, and I usually say, “Laugh at each other.” Of course there are moments of cleaning, cooking, laundry, walking, playing, and crying (usually just him!) thrown in there, but no matter what we’re doing, we usually end up laughing at one another. Case in point: http://www.facebook.com/v/912597125937 After finishing my second round […]

Categories: 31 Days of Facing My Fears, Cancer, Relationships • Tags: Chemotherapy, Christianity, Family, Fear, Life

Armchair

July 27, 2011 by allisonbenotafraid

When I was a few months pregnant, my in-laws bought Mike and me a wonderfully comfy cream colored armchair. The idea was that, since it rocked, I would be able to use it once John Paul was born for breastfeeding and putting him to sleep. Yet, unexpectedly, because of my intense pain and exhaustion, the chair became my almost constant companion even before John Paul was born. The first time I remember feeling pain in my chest was last July, […]

Categories: Cancer, Faith, Music, Parenting, Relationships • Tags: Chemotherapy, Christianity, Jesus, Lymphoma, Prayer, Suffering

Nothing but the blood of Jesus…

July 8, 2011 by allisonbenotafraid

“What can wash away my sin? Nothing but the blood of Jesus; What can make me whole again? Nothing but the blood of Jesus.” One of the complications that can occur after several doses of chemotherapy is anemia, or a reduction in the number of red blood cells in the blood, which in turn causes exhaustion and breathlessness. One way to remedy these symptoms is a blood transfusion. My last and sixth cycle hit me hard. In addition to mouth […]

Categories: Cancer, Faith • Tags: Blood Donation, Blood Transfusion, Chemotherapy, Christianity, Jesus, Life, Lymphoma

I’ll never stop singing this song…

June 11, 2011 by allisonbenotafraid

I’m struggling right now. I don’t feel as sick as I did at this point in my last cycle (when I was in the hospital), and I am so grateful for that. Still, I have terrible mouth sores that make swallowing anything, even liquid, painful, and I’m more exhausted than I’ve ever been in my life. I’m growing weary of spotting my bald head in the mirror, and I’m tired of seeing more and more eyelashes and eyebrow hairs in […]

Categories: Cancer, Faith, Music • Tags: Chemotherapy, Christianity, Jesus, Life, Lymphoma, Prayer

Some Good News (PET Scan Results)

May 31, 2011 by allisonbenotafraid

By Mike Allison began her next round of chemo today, and she is pretty exhausted. But she wanted me to update everyone with the good news we received today. As many of you know, Ali had a PET Scan done last Wednesday to check on the progress of her treatment. The scan showed that her tumor has continued to shrink and is much less active than it originally was. Originally, Allison had a large tumor (12 cm x 13 cm […]

Categories: Cancer • Tags: Chemotherapy, Christianity, Jesus, Life, Lymphoma, PET Scan, Prayer

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